blood and tears, they were here first

new poem dance!
and a poem i didn't write but someone amazing did...

i am driven
not single-minded, obsessive driven
not starving or throwing up driven
not stepping on the people that love me driven
i am a "giving up what's comfortable" driven
a pushing myself past tired driven
a never stop working to get there driven
a driven that's made me stronger

i actually really like the choreography that i put to this one too! i'll show ya if you ask because i'm proud of the work i do!

and this one's not mine...

dance with me...
feel my flesh and
smell my skin...not
through
the metal screen
but through
blood, bone, soul,
and spirit...
do you know me???

my eyes tell you
everything
but you choose
to just see me
through the
applause...

i am not my work...i
am merely a chosen
vessel...
i am...

dance with me
forever!

-mia michaels



<3

i need a winn dixie grocery bag full of money right now to the vip section

new poem! haha i'm not just in a wierd poem mood that's just what we're writing in dance class right now.
so for this assignment we had to write a poem about ourselves and choreograph to the poem and dance it while we recited our poems.
i ended up forgetting part of mine and freezing in the middle and while i was trying to recover everybody started clapping so i was just like ok then. i'm done. haha. it was a pretty great experience though.
here goes.

i am searching
i am searching for my place in the world
where do i fit?
i am searching for the beat to drive my song
i am a musician
i am searching to see where i will end up
where will these choices take me
i am searching to stay afloat
stressed and overwhelmed
i am seaching
i am searching to be as strong as i act
abandon my facade
i am searching for my eternal relationship
never close enough to God
i am searching to inspire someone
make an impact
i am searching to be the person i've always known i am
honestly myself
i am searching

haha so it was that one "i am searching" in the middle where i stopped dancing which sucks because i liked the stuff i had for the second half but whatever. haha if you wanna see my poem dance lemme know. and don't laugh ha.

:D

it's never as easy as we believe

you.
you always knew that perfect organization
for all those thoughts swirling in your head
mine just jumbled together
but you loved me
you loved me enough to hold my hand
through the jumble
through the pain
but mostly
through the time
and then again
from time to time
you look at me one more time
they say that sometimes a lifetime
can flash before your eyes
when your eyes meet mine
it's everything that we ever were
and everything we were supposed to be
you jumble my thoughts all over again
through the time
through the pain
but mostly
through the jumble
are you still holding my hand?

sorry guys. haha but for my dance class at school we keep a journal so i've been writing through some old stuff ya know so this was my subject for tonight and i think for the subject matter something other than my typical prose is way more appropriate and the theme of the class is pretty much finding other mediums of expression so hey give it a shot. but whatever that's what i've got.
oh ps. don't worry guys i'm good i swear haha sometimes i write really dramatic stuff and i think people worry. but trust me i'm good!

happy labor day.